Sunday, September 16, 2007

wrinkles galore

Because of the New York internship, I need to start ironing my clothes for the first time in my life! And, of course, no more flip flops in the office. I guess this very fact will be the thing I miss most in South California.

Anyways, I thought I needed to put myself to practice, and I was ironing for 2 hours today while watching Lady in the Water. It's interesting that I've never looked at my shirts and pants like this before. It was just natual to put them on without any pre-treatment or a single thought, but now I only see wrinkles, wrinkles, and wrinkles. Where the hell are they coming from and why there are so many of them! I need a wife..

Friday, September 07, 2007

Days just drag by

Guess I'm out of practice now I don't know what to write.

But well.. Bought my one-way ticket for the fall internship in New York city. In about 2 weeks, I'll be flying out. It'll be only 2 months but seems highly likely I'm going to live in at least 4 different places, some crashing included. The New York housing market is the worst I have seen. Everything is going crazy. A decent studio in midtown or some other nice neighborhoods costs about 2,000-3,000 a month, and a one-bedroom definitely more than 3,000. Of course I can't afford that. I asked friends for help. And I got in touch with their friends, and their friends' friends, and so on. It's somewhat a depressing process. It's good to get to know more people, and some of them could potentially be friends. But most of them pointed me to Craigslist which I hadn't had much luck with. At one point, I was thinking, maybe by the time I get to NYC, I might arleady know half its population, and still can't find a place to live!

Things started better from about 2 weeks ago though. Nothing is finalized yet, but seems it'd be difficult for me to be homeless for the entire length of stay. A friend's friend's friend's friend (no kidding!) offered me to stay with her for the first week for free. And I might be able to take care of a woman's cats for the second month and live in her lovely apartment by paying only a fraciton of the rent. But the most part of the first month is still a puzzle unsolved. It's also a much more critical time because it is when my parents are coming to visit and stay with me. I always feel that things work this way, that, I might be very lucky enough to get a cat-sitting job, but it will never be the time I exactly like it to be happening. But of course, if everything happens exactly the way I want them to be, I'd be very scared too. That'd be too artificial, like a plot.

Anyways, other than spending tons of time on housing search, I also ended stopped dating a guy whom I was seeing occasionally. I didn't feel right to keep him there while I'd be gone for 2 months in New York. So I told him, hey, for your own good we should stop seeing each other, before we both get too serious in this. He, as a non-Chinese, didn't understand why I was thinking for him, and hated that I made a decision on his behalf. So it's not necessarily happy. The night we broke up, I was distracted by my own cruelty and forgot to change shoes when I was hitting the gym later. I didn't go back but instead went running in my flip flops. It wasn't too bad because I did it on an elliptical machine. Only a couple blisters.

As to friends, I got to know a few new people throughout the summer. They are all interesting, but I realized two things: (1) the older you get the harder it is to find a good friend - we just become pickier and less tolerant, and maybe, a little more cruel too? (2) I seriously need to make more female friends. Facts are they stay friends with you longer, even after they get committed to a relationship.

Work-wise, OK.

Dissertation-wise, I'm making modest progress, but so far so good.